When I was just a lil' girl, I ask my mother, what will I be? Will I be pretty? Will I be rich? ....
Funny how lil' kids sing to nursery rhymes that let them imagine how things will be like in the future. Becos it's so real, humans tend to want to know the future, regardless the young or old.
I have been thinking, 'what kind of mother will I be?', 'will I change as a wife?', 'will I change as a friend?', 'how will my child turn out to be?'. Will he/she be healthy, adorable, smart? . What can I do to nurture my child to bring out the best in him/her? Will I always be able to protect him/her when they grow up?
A tad to fast to think but yes, occasionally ,thoughts like these run through my mind.
I want to still be the very same woman my man loves me for, or if I can,even more loving. I want to still make him feel loved, not neglected just because there is another person for me to love. I want him to know I still enjoy spending time with him and not just having the child constantly on my mind. I want him to know, he still matters, so very very much.
I want to love my child with all the love I have, to shower affection and concern any mother would want to give.
It's going to be an interesting journey, one that's filled with joy & laughter, one that will awe me from time to time, one that is peppered with frustrated moments and even tears, most importantly, one that will make me love another person like I never love before.
But as I much as I spend time imagining and wondering what the future will be, I need to remind myself to pause and enjoy the present.
All excited to see you on Monday, grow well & beautifully my love. Wave a lil' if you can.