Tidied up my Facebook and looked through my previous posts. I realised I'm more of a 'picture' sharing person rather than an 'emotion' sharing one. The most I will post on my status would be holidays and thank you msg for the well wishes. I'm an extrovert, who wears my emotions on my sleeves. I smile when I'm happy, I cry when my heart aches, I show my anger, displeasure and excitement. Over the years, I've learnt, to hide some according to situation/circumstances, especially at work while handling customers. However, I realised as I grow older, I tend to be less open about my emotions. I still am to those close to me because really, they are the ones who matter, the ones who genuinely care, who would be an arm away from a hug, a call away to listen, a firm hold away to encourage, a shoulder away for me to cry on.
Whether I'm happy, sad , frustrated, upset or anything that is associated with my feelings, I tend not to post on FB, a social medium that encompasses all my friends including acquaintances, even people whom I feel 'pai-seh' to not accept their requests. I don’t wanna bombard their "Newsfeed" . Because when I post it on FB, even those who are not interested will be 'force' to know my inner thoughts. And to those who really matter to me, they will know about it in a more intimate way.
I'm certainly not against others who post theirs, it's anyone prerogative. In fact, it's like a real time update of their lives, interesting especially when I'm in the kay-poh mood J
Maybe that's why I chose to blog, to pour my feelings and inner thoughts, those thoughts that will run in my mind which I don't talk about freely, thoughts that only people who really matter and bother read about. I'm private in that sense. I jot down these thoughts so that I can look back from time to time to take stock of my life.
